Some food for thought

Reading List

2007-01-04T11:15:00.000-05:00

Ok so I guess it's about time I've started reading again. I decided to take a leave of absence from the whole reading thing when I finished school. Don't get me wrong, I love reading, but after having to read ~5 novels a week/2 weeks for 3 years I got a LITTLE tired and worn out. So for the past few months I've been easing my way back into it, but I still find myself speed reading through the pages with the constant notion that "I have to finish, I have to finish!!! 1 minute/page is too long!" haha. I think I can safely say that I'm starting to realize that I have NO DEADLINE! I can take a MONTH if I wanted, wow I've never had this luxury of time, it's like a whole new concept! Ok, so maybe I'm being a tad dramatic! But it will definitely be nice to read books again at my own leisure; I'm hoping to eventually re-read all the books I read over my university career...ok maybe not Fairie Queen!=) For now I'm reading some books that were put on hold while I was in school. So here's the list of books I'm reading and books I've finished just recently:

Completed:
Eats, Shoots and Leaves by Lynne Truss
-pretty good for the first 100pgs or so, then it starts to get a little redundant, but I still recommend it

Night by Elie Wiesel
-an excellent read! He's one of my favourite writers

On-going:
A Purpose Driven Life by Rick Warren
-I'm on day 31/40, but so far its been pretty insightful
-it has definitely helped me answer some questions during some difficult times during the course of reading it

Velvet Elvis by Rob Bell pg 52/172
-I can't seem to get through this book, I keep picking it up and putting it down again
-it's like a bad version of a stream of consciousness style, and I already found it hard to get through Virginia Woolf, imagine a bad version?!
-maybe I've been reading too many scholarly novels?

All Rivers Run to the Sea, Elie Wiesel's Memoirs pg 42/418
-This is my most recent book and so far I'm loving it, but then again I might be biased =)

Happy Birthday

2007-01-04T11:14:00.000-05:00

Jan 3 @ 10:51 am

Ok so it was my birthday on Monday, yes New Year's Day, yes I was the new year's baby (stroke of midnight baby!), and yes I was on the front page of the Toronto Star. That's usually how the conversation goes=). So another year has gone by; I don't feel different though, but I am a year older. I think my mom was a little shocked at how old I'm getting just because I'm the baby of the family, but I don't feel old and I don't think I'm old. 23 is still young, although I'm not getting any younger, but I'm ok with that because I'm happy with the position that I'm in in my life. I'm right on track:
1) My spiritual walk and relationship is stronger than ever and getting stronger.
2) I graduated and started working at the job that I wanted within a couple of months, well technically 2 days after my official convocation.
3) I'm in love with someone whom I plan on marrying (and who plans on marrying me=) )
4) I'm happy and I'm satisfied

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

When I came back to work on Tuesday my co-worker played a slightly different version of a Happy Birthday song for me....I know they love me lol. =S

Here it is:

Once a year we celebrate with stupid hats and plastic plates
The fact that you were able to make another trip around the sun
And the whole clan gathers round and gifts and laughter do abound
And we let out a joyful sound and sing that stupid song

Happy Birthday
Now you're one year older
Happy Birthday
Your life still isn't over
Happy Birthday
You did not accomplish much
But you didn't die this year
I guess that's good enough

So let's drink to your fading health and hope you don't remind yourself
Your chances of finding fame and wealth decrease with every year
Does it feel like you're doing laps and eating food and taking naps
And hoping that some day perhaps your life will hold some cheer

Happy Birthday
What have you done that matters?
Happy Birthday
You're starting to get fatter
Happy Birthday
It's downhill from now on
Try not to remind yourself
Your best years are all gone

If cryogenics were all free then you could live like Walt Disney
And live for all eternity inside a block of ice
But instead your time is set this is the only life you get
And though it hasn't ended yet sometimes you wish it might

Happy Birthday
You wish you had more money
Happy Birthday
Your life's so sad it's funny
Happy Birthday
How much more can you take
But your friends are hungry
So just cut the stupid cake

Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday
Dear (continuous names)

oops

2007-01-04T11:12:00.000-05:00

ok so it's been a while lol. But I've been writing regularly on my facebook account instead of here for some reason. So here are some of the "notes" I've written there.

Wannabes
Dec 22 @ 5:17pm
So I understand that everyone goes through this period of 'finding themselves', but what I don't understand is why at the end of it they find 'someone else'? I don't mean a literal someone else, I mean they end up finding someone who is the complete opposite of themselves. Sure we all wish we could be a certain way: more outgoing, smarter, prettier, cooler, skinnier, bigger (muscular-wise), more articulate/eloquent, taller/shorter etc etc! The list goes on and on; as human beings we have insatiable appetites for 'improvement'. What we really need to come to terms with is the fact that we can't change who we are on the inside; we can try to change how we appear and how we act to those around us, but usually the truth of who we really are comes trickling through the gaps. I'm not saying that quiet people should stick to the shadows, because sometimes the quietest of people can be the most effective leaders. But what I am saying is that if you are quiet/loud then don't pretend not to be. Being either introverted/extraverted isn't a bad thing. I know I know, the grass is always greener on the other side, trust me, I KNOW, but the best thing you can do for yourself is ACCEPT who you are. Nothing is more attractive then someone who is confident about who they TRULY are. By pretending your someone you're not you're simply making a fool of yourself. You might get new friends, or a new boyfriend/girlfriend, but it's not real, because the friendship/relationship is based on something fake. Personally, the temporary high isn't worth it; why settle for temporary when I can have a lifetime. If you're looking for "True Love" "True friendships" try being true to yourself first. Sure you might stumble along the way; some people might hurt you, but changing who you are isn't the solution. The solution is waiting for the right relationships to come along, the one that accepts you for who you are, idiosyncrasies and all.

I know I'm not really saying anything that hasn't already been said, but it just bugs me. I've come to terms with the fact that I'm loud, sometimes obnoxious, and snobby (some ppl out there will get it haha). I may not be the same person I was back in high school, but at the centre of it all I'm still me, just less self-conscious about it; I broke out of my shell, I didn't jump into an entirely different one. I'm not going to change who I am because you might not like it, just as I wouldn't expect you to change who you are if I don't like it.

If you got through this entire rant, or whatever it is, then congratulations that's quite a feat and thanks for taking the time.

My Opinion

2006-07-25T21:48:00.000-04:00

If you don't like computers, don't become a Computer Engineer or IT person
If you don't like science, don't become a doctor
If you don't like math, stay away from engineering and accounting
If you don't like dealing with people, don't become a CSR
If you don't like helping others, don't become a pastor.
It you don't like doing a lot of work, don't become a leader.

Seems like a pretty simple concept to me. Yeah? Apparently not! If you've chosen a certain path for yourself, then stick to it; give it your 100%. No one forced you into the position that you're in (if indeed you chose it), if you don't like it, then quit! Everything in this world requires team effort, excuse the cliche, but "no man is an island". You have a certain task to perform, but if you don't like it then let someone else take your place, because you're pulling down the rest of the team. The worst is when the leaders of a team are the lazy ones, the ones sitting back expecting everyone to come to them; thinking that they've done enough; it's not their responsiblity to recruit people. That's just plain selfish.

I think politicians and pastors have a lot in common: Public Image
If you can't handle it, and if you're not willing to step up, then step-down because you're making the rest of us look bad.

Politicians represent certain parties
Pastors represent certain religious denominations

Politicians are expected to act a certain way to represent their party favourably
Pastors are also expected to act a certain way to represent their congregation favourably

What happens when a politician fails to pay attention to the citizen's needs?
They lose votes
What happens when a pastor fails to pay attention to the church members' needs?
They lose followers

What do we do with a politician we are unhappy with?
Vote them out of office

that's what i'm talking about!

2006-02-13T01:53:00.000-05:00

I'm a Dodge Viper!

You're all about raw power. You're tough, you're loud, and you don't take crap from anyone. Leave finesse to the other cars, the ones eating your dust.

Take the Which Sports Car Are You? quiz.

yeah baby! haha

where should YOU be?

2006-01-30T09:23:00.000-05:00

YAY i'm right where i belong...well except the psychology part.

You scored as English. You should be an English major! Your passion lies in writing and expressing yourself creatively, and you hate it when you are inhibited from doing so. Pursue that interest of yours!

English

92%

Journalism

92%

Linguistics

83%

Philosophy

75%

Theater

75%

Dance

58%

Sociology

58%

Mathematics

42%

Psychology

42%

Engineering

42%

Anthropology

42%

Art

33%

Chemistry

17%

Biology

What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3)
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a thot...

2006-01-15T21:47:00.000-05:00

we all travel on this road called Life and at more than one point in our travels we've come across a fork in the road. I know this is so cliche, and i'm not one for cliche's but it's the easiest way to put this. I'm sure most of us have heard the poem by Robert Frost, The Road Less Travelled, but can you actually say that you took the road less travelled? the road that you weren't sure where it would lead you, u weren't sure if there would be other forks, potholes you could fall into, traps along the way that could hurt you. Would you still want to take that road? What if i said that in taking this road there is a GUARANTEE that everything will work out, maybe not the way you want it, but still work out.
But then there's the other option, option B, the road more travelled. The road which every sign points towards, the road that most of your friends have told you to take. you basically know where it will take you, you know the generally route; potholes, traps, hidden intersections because you've been told. Now which road will you take?
But what if you knew that option B could end up being a dead end, will this affect your decision?
Let's review: we've got 2 choices
Option A: The road Less Travelled. The road where you have less control over what happens, but that comes with a guarantee that things will work out in the end.
Option B: The Road More Travelled. The road which most ppl have told you about, so you know most of the route, you know what could happen, you know that it could lead to a dead end. This road comes with no guarantee.

Why is it that most of us still choose Option B? Why not go with the option that comes with a guarantee? Why are we willing to take the risk of coming to a dead end?

Which road have you chosen?
are you willing to live with the consequences of your actions knowing that there was another road, another option that came with a lifetime Guarantee?

Don't get caught standing over a hospitable bed, sitting through a funeral service, sitting in a courtroom being charged for manslaughter, or even listening to your parents yell at you for breaking the rules wishing you had taken the LIFETIME GUARANTEE. the guarantee that says things will work out in the end; terrible things still might happen, but eventually you'd be able to accept them. Time can heal the wounds of sadness and pain, but no amount of time can wash away the GUILT, that can last a lifetime.

i've painted a pretty gruesome picture, are you still ready to live with the consequences?

R u a loser...

2005-12-18T19:08:00.000-05:00

Do the test and let me know. Leave a comment!

stoopid snow!

2005-12-17T10:52:00.000-05:00

grrr there's snow in my apartment AGAIN! but i'm not inviting anyone over to go tobbogganing! i've now resorted to putting packing tape all along my windows to keep out the cold winds from outside! my windows are closed for the season, literally.

i'm procrastinating as usual. i've got my last TWO exams on monday, so i'll be writing exams from 9am-4pm OH GOODY! after that i've got some CRAZY packing to do since my flight is at 9am the next morning! gotta pack for 2 different seasons: Vancouver and Mexico! i can't wait to see my adorable niece!

so i fly out to Van on the 20th,
then fly out of Van on the 24th to Mexico,
fly out of Mexico on the 31st back to Van,
then finally fly out of Van back here to Ottawa on the 6th.
WOW that's A LOT of flying!

Christmas in Mexico, definetly something different, but i can't wait. i LOVE family vacations!

oh yes and i'm on my way to becoming a rock star! My baby bought me my own beginner's drum package! although i haven't had anytime to really play with it=( but i can't wait to start BANGING away hehehe.

ok back to studying!

hmmm strange....

2005-11-24T12:19:00.000-05:00

and it is officially winter here in the Nations Capital. actually it's been winter for about a week now. our first snowfall was i think on the 17th. so yeah it's snowing outside, but as you can see in the picture it appears to be snowing inside my windows....hmmm strange. is that normal? i mean my windows are closed, but there's still snow INSIDE. i mean i can actually touch snow without opening anything! and i seem to be experiencing a breeze coming from under my desk, cuz my feet are freezing! but again no windows opened....hmmm also strange. the answer isn't a hard one folks, quite simple actually: PRINCE OF WALES.
sigh... c'est la vie

hitting close to home

2005-11-12T15:13:00.000-05:00

usually when things happen halfway across the world it never really affects me on a personal level. i mean yeah that it's terrible news, but i can't really feel the anxiety and the worry that other ppl feel when they know someone amidst the crisis. i suppose you can say i've always been "lucky" for lack of a better word.

but now there's a new situation to worry about, a new crisis on our hands. (it never seems to end does it?) France is falling apart, riots are breaking out everywhere; stores are being robbed, cars are being vandalized, buildings are being burned, and there's a curfew in affect in certain areas. sounds like a scene from out of a movie, but then again everything seems like that nowadays. and normally it wouldn't phase me, but this time it has, there's one small difference with this situation from every other world catasprophe: my brother is in France. this time it's hitting close to home.

at first the riots were mainly in Paris, but they've spread into the city where my borther is currently living. riots are breaking out and there are police everywhere. i'm not sure he'll ever really tell us how serious the situation is, i can only hope and pray that it isn't as bad as it seems and that it all ends soon. i mean what else can i do? NOTHING, there's nothing else i can do.

DANCING!

2005-11-12T12:42:00.000-05:00

finally went out for a night of dancing yesterday! school has been holding me back. but i finally had a weekend where i could afford to go out and let loose! The DJ at The Drink on Friday nights is THE BEST! he plays a lot of the old school songs, which are ALWAYS classic! Run DMC, Mariah Carey (Fantasy), Real McCoy (Another Night, Another Dream) and of course JUMP AROUND! The Join Ottawa.com team was there promoting so they had a team of girls up on the bar, but unfortunately they didn't really do anything. i totally thought they were gonna do some cool dance moves, but no NOTHING! shish what kind of promo team is that?

it was a really fun night, as usual!

and here are some pics we took once we got home after a long and tiring night of dancing for 2 1/2 hours straight!

Just some random pics

2005-11-12T12:31:00.000-05:00

here are some random pics i took a while ago, just forgot about them haha.
my floors deecided to go crazy on me! it was not fun! took the stupid building ppl forever to send ppl over to fix it. after nearly a week i got fed up and spoke directly with the building manager and gave him a piece of my mind. and VOILA! by 8am the next morning i had guys coming in to fix it all up! it's amazing how much faster i got results just by yelling....i mean SPEAKING with management =).

after a really heavy rain fall there was a really nice rainbow. i had to take the pic of course through my window, so it didn't turn out nearly as clear as it actually was.

isn't it pretty? Afterall it is God's promise that He would never flood the earth again.

missing my baby

2005-11-10T14:19:00.000-05:00

well in case some of you don't know, stupid calvin got to go to Vancouver for "work". and yesterday he got to see MY bundle of joy! got to pick her and play with her! grrr i still have to wait 1 month and pay for a flight, while he gets to go ALL EXPENSES PAID! my hard working tax dollars!

but despite my bitter jealousy i'm happy for him...=)

just hurry up and come home!
7more days...

Rant

2005-11-07T15:24:00.000-05:00

You know what i HATE?! people who offer their opinions despite the fact that they weren't asked for it. Worst of all that they actually think their opinion is even important! I mean seriously come on, don't flatter yourself into thinking that we actually want to know what YOU think, cuz guess what WE DON'T! When i want your opinion, i'll ask for it, but don't hold your breath.

in the meantime, SHUT UP!

2005-11-01T09:10:00.000-05:00

one of many favourite pictures. she just woke up from her nap so her eyes still look sleepy. don't you love her pajamas, almost everything she has is Winnie the Pooh!

this is a rare moment; her putting her head on my shoulders. she fits so perfectly in my arms....*sigh* i miss her. 1 more month.

2005-11-01T08:48:00.000-05:00

I got to bring her to ChuckECheese! OMG it was soo cute, she even knows how to say "Chuck E Cheeeese" as soon as we turne into the plaza she was already yelling "Chuck E Cheeese, Chuck E Cheese!" haha it was adorable. of course i had to play a little trick on her and walked her towards the ChuckECheese but then hung a right and started walking towards the other store, the look on her face was priceless! we did a whole tug-of-war for a bit and then she dropped her head in complete and udder disappointment and gave up. but of course i picked her up and brought her in at that point. i'm not mean, i just like teasing her! hehe=)
isn't she just the cutest thing?!
only babies can get away with doing this and still look so cute. even though she walked all the way up there, she could still only drop the ball into the 100slot lol. but it was so cute just watching her!

well that's it for ChuckECheese, there are so many more, but i had to be really selective. can't post all of them

finally

2005-11-01T08:31:00.000-05:00

haha ok so it's been since forever that i've updated this thing! i can't help it i'm busy with school! (that's my excuse for everything nowadays lol) well i'm gonna make this kinda brief b/c i should be reading my novel, i've still got 100 pages to go and i've gotta write a 40min presentation on it still!

so my sister and my adorable little bundle of joy came down to toronto from vancouver for A MONTH! i know a month! i almost dropped out of school when i heard that, cuz i wanted to be in Toronto and spend time with them for that month. but at least i was able to get in two 4-5 days weekends and go home to see them. went home thanksgiving weekend and spent a RELAXING 5 days at home, did absolutely ZERO work, only because i finished everything beforehand. Then i was able to go home this past weekend for another 4 days because it was time for them to leave. once saturday came around i was sooo sad! i couldn't believe my cute little Charisse was leaving me and i'm not going to see her for another MONTH! but i did take LOTS of pictures hehe. so here they are, well some of them:

Probably one of my favourite things to do is dress her up in clothes that are WAY to big for her. haha it's just so cute. she's like a little doll =)

2005-08-02T00:24:00.000-04:00

oh alright fine, maybe not "i accept"

2005-08-01T19:31:00.000-04:00

i think it's over...?

A Tribute

2005-07-29T17:01:00.000-04:00

i saw this on the bulletin board on friendster and i thought it would be something nice to post. I'll be the first to say that i know that i don't appreciate my mom as much as i should. She puts up with a whole lot, but everyday she's still willing to get up every morning and put up with even more. i don't know how she does it. for those of you who know me well, i'm sure you've heard me say that i think my mom is like wonderwoman. SERIOUSLY! she NEVER rests. she changed the diapers, fed the mouths, picked up after, drove around, paid for lessons, attended teacher conferences, met friends (and remembered all their names), went to graduations, concerts, performances, track meets, cooked for even when away at university, provided a shelter for, and so many other things that always get forgotton and she did this for not just one, not just two, or three or even 4 but for FIVE KIDS and to this day she hasn't slowed down one bit, in fact i think she's actually sped up! =) so here it is:

When you were 1 year old,
she
fed you
and bathed
you. You thanked her by crying all night
long.

When you were 2 years old, she taught
you to
walk. You thanked her by running away
when she
called.

When you were 3 years old, she made all
your
meals with love. You thanked her by
tossing your
plate on the floor.

When you were 4 years old, she gave you
some
crayons. You thanked her by coloring the
dining
room table.

When you were 5 years old, she dressed
you for
the holidays. You thanked her by
plopping into the
nearest pile of mud.

When you were 6 years old, she walked
you to
school. You thanked her by
screaming, "I'M NOT
GOING!"

When you were 7 years old, she bought
you a
baseball. You thanked her by throwing it
through
the next-door-neighbor's window.

When you were 8 years old, she handed
you an
ice cream. You thanked her by dripping it
all over
your lap.

When you were 9 years old, she paid for
piano
lessons. You thanked her by never even
bothering
to practice.

When you were 10 years old she drove
you all
day,
from soccer to gymnastic to one birthday
party
after another. You thanked her by
jumping out of
the car and never looking back.

When you were 11 years old, she took you
and
your friends to the movies. You thanked
her by
asking to sit in a different row.

When you were 12 years old, she warned
you not
to watch certain TV shows. You thanked
her by
waiting until she left the house.

When you were 13, she suggested a
haircut that
was becoming. You thanked her by telling
her she
had no taste.

When you were 14, she paid for a month
away at
summer camp. You thanked her by
forgetting to
write a single letter.

When you were 15, she came home from
work,
looking for a hug. You thanked her by
having your
bedroom door locked.

When you were 16, she taught you how to
drive
her
car. You thanked her by taking it every
chance you
could.

When you were 17, she was expecting an
important call. You thanked her by being
on the
phone all night.

When you were 18, she cried at your high
school
graduation. You thanked her by staying
out
partying until dawn.

When you were 19, she paid for your
college
tuition, drove you to campus carried your
bags.
You thanked her by saying good-bye
outside the
dorm so you wouldn't be embarrassed in
front of
your friends.

When you were 20, she asked whether
you were
seeing anyone. You thanked her by
saying, "It's
none of your business."

When you were 21, she suggested certain
careers
for your future. You thanked her by
saying, "I don't
want to be like you."

When you were 22, she hugged you at
your
college graduation. You thanked her by
asking
whether she could pay for a trip to Europe.

When you were 23, she gave you furniture
for your
first apartment. You thanked her by telling
your
friends it was ugly.

When you were 24, she met your fiance
and asked
about your plans for the future. You
thanked her by
glaring and growling, "Muuhh-ther,
please!"

When you were 25, she helped to pay for
your
wedding, and she cried and told you how
deeply
she loved you. You thanked her by
moving halfway
across the country.

When you were 30, she called with some
advice
on
the baby. You thanked her by telling
her, "Things
are different now."

When you were 40, she called to remind
you of a
relative's birthday. You thanked her by
saying you
were "really busy right now."

When you were 50, she fell ill and
needed you to
take care of her. You thanked her by
reading about
the burden parents become to their
children.

And then, one day, she quietly died. And
everything you never did came crashing
down like
thunder on YOUR HEART.

Don't
take advantage of her

TOTALLY PROCRASTINATING!

2005-07-27T21:03:00.000-04:00

*huge sigh* ok so i'm as the Title reads "totally procrastinating." i working on an essay for my summer school class British Literature and it was supposed to be due this Friday, but i just found out today that my prof has deecided to give us an extension because apparently there've been a lot of ppl emailing her about not being able to hand it in on-time. so the revised due date is next Thursday the 4th, which in any other circumstance would be GREAT thing, but unfortunately not in my case. you see since the essay is due a week later, i might (as i am currently doing) procrastinate and take my time writing it for another whole week! which also means that everyhting else i hadplanned for next week will get pushed later. registration is next week the 5th, so i need to get mving and start making up a timetable! plus i really need to get cracking on my lectures (i haven't even watched one for this term)! and i need to gte started on the readings! and continue with the research i'msupposed to be doing for my bro! this stupid essay has taken up allll my time! so you see i HAVE to get it done by the original due date THIS FRIDAY or i'm screwed! i'd say i'm about 60% done writing it, however the big problem is i'm not really sure what to write anymore. i'm not having writer's block or anything, it just seems as though i've run out of ideas, or rather points to discuss. i htink i've already started to write my conclusion, but it's WAAAAY TO EARLY! so there's my dilemma. again: *HUGE sigh* back to the writing table...

oh yes AND...dare i say this knowing that i may get a few very angry comments or emails....well i'm gonna have to say it sooner or later....

i don't think

that i'm

going to be able

to go to

Vancouver this

summer

BUT!!! I WILL BE THERE FOR CHRISTMAS!

*bracing for impact* eeeeeek. I'M SORRY! i blame it on my stupid summer school, i still don't know when i'll be writing my exam. i just dont wanna go for only a week cuz it's just such a waste. sorry girls!

camping

2005-07-20T17:57:00.000-04:00

well the long awaited camping weekend has come and gone. and well my mom always taught me that if i have nothing nice to say then don't say anything at all. so on that note i end this post. lol.

okok i will give some details and post some pics.

Some things i learned:
1) Wendy HATES mosquitoes!
2) 1 can of OFF AREA SPRAY is not enuff for ONE weekend
3) everything is DEEP FRIED...apparently
4) have i mentioned: WENDY HATES MOSQUITOES!
5) OFF Skintastic sucks, MUSKOL (28.5%deet) is the way to go!
6) Calvin apparently knows what he's doing =)
7) make sure you KNOW the ppl you're going with
8) hoodies or anything long sleeved with a hood is KEY at night
9) i HATE mosquitoes! (in case i haven't mentioned it yet)
and finally last but not least
10) apparently there's such thing as a "church bathing suit"

okie dokes now for some PICTURES!

2005-07-20T17:56:00.000-04:00

my was tent was in chrage of cooking breakfast on Sat, so there i am DEEP FRYING! lol

2005-07-20T17:55:00.000-04:00

a very UNHAPPY wendy: WHAT ARE YOU LOOKING AT?!

2005-07-20T17:54:00.000-04:00

YES I slept in a tent! i know it's CRAAAZY!

2005-07-20T17:53:00.000-04:00

making "DEEP FRIED" scrambled eggs!

2005-07-20T17:52:00.000-04:00

calvin took pictures of me writing messages in the air with a glow stick. cool eh?! it's actually a lot harder than it seems b/c the camera will pick up evey stroke.

2005-07-20T17:51:00.000-04:00

for example here was one of the first ones i tried, it's supposed to say "i (heart) u"

2005-07-20T17:50:00.000-04:00

the stars out there were really pretty, calvin once again with his fancy camera abilities was able to take a clear pic of the big dipper.

2005-07-20T17:49:00.000-04:00

and lastly: guys washing dishes?! whoa!

"The Five People You Meet In Heaven"

2005-06-22T14:29:00.000-04:00

my mom has been nagging me to read this book, so the other day i finally sat down and read the book in one sitting. It was a really good book, lots of good quotations and definetly something that made you think about life in a different way. it brought up an interesting point about how everyone has a different story, but in the end each one comes together to make one main story. I don't wanna give away any details of the book because i suggest that everyone take the time to read it. it's a really short book, less than 200pages, and a very easy read. i just want to share a few quotes from the book, add to the theme of this page, which is "Some Food For Thought". so here they are:

“Strangers are just family you have yet to come to know”pg49

“Sacrifice is a part of life. It’s supposed to be. It’s not something you regret. It’s something you aspire to. Little sacrifices. Big sacrifices. A mother works so her son can go to school. A daughter moves home to take care of her sick father.” Pg93

“Holding onto anger is a poison. It eats you from the inside. We think that hating is a weapon that attacks the person who harmed us. But hatred is a curved blade. And the harm we do, we do to ourselves.” Pg141

and lastly, one of my favourite ones:

“Lost love is still love. It takes a different form, that’s all. You can’t see their smile or bring them food or tousle their hair or move them around a dance floor. But when those senses weaken, another heightens. Memory. Memory becomes your partner. You nurture it. You hold it. You dance with it. Life has to end. Love doesn’t.” pg 173

songs

2005-06-17T10:51:00.000-04:00

a song is that much better when the lyrics are good. Most of today's popular songs are about killing and girls/sex or just about the artist themselves and how they drive around in escalades, sipping champagne. but every once in a while someone comes out with a song that's about life and the struggles that anyone can experience, whether you're some kind of music star, or just the "average joe".

so here's a song that i'm really enjoying right now:

Again
Faith Evans

Ohhhhhh
Ohhhhhh

[Verse 1]
Now I done felt a lot of pain
I done seen a lot of things
From struggling and broken heart to fancy cars (oh yeah)
And even though my money change
I tried my best to stay the same
But you know with mo money
Mo problems came

[Chorus]
If I had to do it all again
I wouldn't take away the rain
Cuz I know it made me who I am
If I had to do it all again
I've learn so much from my mistakes that's how I know he is
watching me

[Verse 2]
In atl I caught a case
And the media tried to say
I had a habit
I couldn't manage and I am throwing my life away
But everything ain't what it seems just because its on TV
Cuz they speculate and exaggerate for a better story

[Chorus]
If I had to do it all again
I wouldn't take away the rain
Cuz I know it made me who I am
If I had to do it all again
I've learn so much from my mistakes that's how I know he is
watching me

[Bridge]
Nobody knows what life may bring
It might make you happy it might make you sad
Sometimes yeah but I know there's a reason for everything (but I
know)
That's why I keep believing
Whatever is meant to be its going to be

[Chorus (2x)]
If I had to do it all again
I wouldn't take away the rain
Cuz I know it made me who I am
If I had to do it all again
I've learn so much from my mistakes that's how I know he is
watching me

Changes

2005-06-12T22:05:00.000-04:00

I'm a little confused, i'm not really sure how i should be feeling right now. Things are changing, people are changing. Is this all part of growing up? I guess i just never thought that i would feel like i was being left behind, that there was something that i was missing out on. Like everyone knows a secret that i don't. Ive built my life upon certain values, lived my life with certain attitudes and i thought that we were on the same page. but why do i feel like you've moved on to not only a new chapter but a new chapter in a different book? Did i miss something along the way? I feel like i've been tricked all along. Maybe we were never on the same book. Maybe i was mistaken. Maybe i was a fool to think that you understood me, that WE understood each other. I guess i'm just not used to this. can i ever get used to it? This is strange, this feeling that i'm going through, the emotions that are running wild, the thoughts that are scrabbling for clarity...Is this all part of the ride? if so, when's the next stop, cuz i'm getting off...

quote

2005-06-09T14:07:00.000-04:00

I received an interesting email today from a girlfriend. it had said some really interesting things about women and their relationships with men. here's a quote from it (thanks jennie):

"They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them, a day to love them and an entire lifetime to forget them."

full throttle

2005-06-06T14:30:00.000-04:00

well sat night i finally got a chance to push Tiana past 80kms/hr. took her out on the highway and cruised at 160kms/hr feels soooo nice! the best part was merging onto the highway, she's so responsive! i'm used to my maxima where i usually have to wait for the power to kick in. i'm still not comfortable with using the "manual mode" yet. but i did let Calvin take her for a spin and he took advantage of the "manual mode", although i'm not sure how he liked it.

the best part about this weekend is that CALVIN WAS HERE! he surprised me on wednesday night! i got a phonecall around 8pm and it was calvin asking me if i would open the door for him! it was the sweetest thing evR! =)he tried to do it last weekend but i made him blow his cover. hehe. thanks soo much hun for coming up this weekend!

so here are some highlights:

2005-06-06T14:25:00.000-04:00

on Sat morning I went biking with Calvin, my bro and some ppl from church. we biked from Sunnybrook park to downtown. we were supposed to go to Ashridges Bay, but there were 2 ppl rollerblading with us, and they were pretty tired. but they went through some crazy stuff!

2005-06-06T14:24:00.000-04:00

along the way there was actually a deer crossing the path! it was soo beautiful! the deer was so calm and he didn't seem scared of us at all. the picture is kinda far, cuz i jumped off my bike a little too early. i was too eager to take a pic i thot the deer would run away right away so i didn't want to miss it. that's Calvin to the left of thepic in red, he got soo much closer! aboo.

2005-06-06T14:20:00.000-04:00

on Sunday afternoon had an exhibition game between my churches 2 softball teams. of course my team "Genesis" won! woohoo! calvin was sweet enough to watch the game even in the sweltering heat and take pics of me! afterall he is my NUMBER 1 FAN! :P

2005-06-06T14:19:00.000-04:00

Here's me running home! wOOt look at me go! btw all pictures are copyright of calvinmak. lol thanks for the pics hun! you're the bestest!

2005-06-01T12:43:00.000-04:00

okok i've resorted to getting a picture online. sorry to those who guessed and never received a response! hehe sorry JOE! well here's the surprise my new baby. everyone meet Tiana, Tiana meet everyone! she's finally at 966clicks so just 34 more kms and it's time to see what this baby can do with 270hp! i've only taken her out a few times, but last night was the first time i drove her at night for more than just 2 mins and can i tell you, HiD's make such a difference! I CAN SEE! i'm finally starting to feel more comfortable driving her, it took me a while...although i've actually only driven her 4-5 times. okie dokes so there's my surprise! thanks for those who put in a guess. funny how everyone guessed it was a camera! shish!

YAY!

2005-05-10T18:15:00.000-04:00

SHE'S HERE SHE'S HERE! WOOHOO!!! i'm soo happy, soo excited! but i still have to be patient with her, i can't push her too hard. prolly not for a month or so. but i'm just glad she's finally here!

you're missing it hun! but you'll get to see her in less than 2 weeks.

i'll post pics soon, for those of you wondering what the surprise is. any guesses?

12 days

2005-05-08T19:14:00.000-04:00

today will probably be one of the hardest days for me to get through, well the next few days at least. hopefully i'll find things to keep myself busy or it's definetly going to be hard. i'm waiting patiently till you come back to me in 12 days. although i'll probably only get to spend a couple of hours with you till you have to leave again. i suppose it's better than nothing. i can't believe it's only been 4 hours and already i'm miserable without you.

i guess it's time to start planning this summer of mine! first on the list: i've gotta find me a job! that'll definetly pass the days! watch a lot of movies, go for all you can eat sushi, hit up the driving range, play some softball, oh yeah and summer school lol almost forgot about that one, go bowling, hang out with friends!

i can do this...

patiently waiting

2005-05-07T19:12:00.000-04:00

my hard work has paid off! i've spent the last week in constant debate with my dad and the finally decision has been made as of today. my reward will be here on tuesday or wednesday latest....it'll be a surprise!

...

2005-05-03T15:58:00.000-04:00

not sure what to do now. evreything seems to be falling apart. i'd rather be back in school, in ottawa if this is the alternative. things seemed easier and less complicated then. summer is supposed to be relaxing, so far it's been everything but that. i suppose it's only been 4 days, who knows maybe by some miracle it'll all get better...

thanks han for getting me out of the house today, you're a lifesaver. i really needed this. it gave me that little bit of energy i needed to get me through the day.

now to get through the next week...or the next 4 months for that matter...should be interesting.

FINIS!

2005-04-28T11:59:00.000-04:00

woohoo i am officially done and DONE! finally! the entire year seems to go by so quickly, yet exams seem to never end! i for one cannot believe that 3rd year has come and gone in the blink of an eye, i mean where have i been these past 8 months?! but before i start reminiscing i've got a lot of packing to do! moving out of my apartment after being here for 2 years! kriss and i have deecided to move in together and finally do it right for our last year, too many bad deecisions and unnecessary stress, for those who i confide in, you'll know EXACTLY what i'm talking about! ;)

i spent the entire day yesterday packing up my room and i'm still NOT done! it was such a slap in the face when Calvin called me a PACK RAT! ahhhhhh noooooo NOT MEEEH! so i definetly spent some time sorting through everything and throwing out A LOT of things! you just never know when you'll need some of this stuff....even though some of them might be expired already (flyers, take out menus, burnt lightbulbs hahaha etc)....lol. and WOW do i have a heck of a lot of plastic bags! i'll try and take a pic of my empty room (ooo i hsould have taken a before and after...oh well too late!) and all my stuff packed up.

i'll be leaving ottawa tomorrow and heading back to good ol' TO.
for those in TO: can't wait to see you all and spend some quality time together, since i'll actually be in town this time! lol Han: we've gotta start planning your b-day soiree as soon as i get settled back in!

For those i'm leaving behind in ottawa (or those also going home): i'm gonna spend more time around sand, i'll be better next time! lol and i'll see you in 4 months! or of you're in TO!

For those in VAN: I'M TRYING I'M TRYING! i know i promised all you gals that i'd come back and take you all out and i intend on keeping that promise! i owe some of you a drink! i know the retreat coming up won't be the same without me! hahaha no crazy stories at 4 in the morning!

okie dokes time to continue packing! :S

procrastinating

2005-04-27T06:58:00.000-04:00

well i'm about to write my last exam in 2 hours and i'm NOT at all prepared. i'm just so tired and i have no motivation to study for some reason. actually i have an idea why: i HATE this class. i took it as an english course, but little did i know it was also a FILM class, so here i am taking a second year film class with absolutely NO background. oh well just a few more hours and it'll be all over, along with my third year in uni eek! *sigh* i'm soooooo sleepy! don't you just love going to sleep at 2am, and waking up at 5am to continue studying? i just hope i don't fall asleep during this exam :S.

just a quick update:
had a farewell dinner at fellowship on saturday night for all those leaving for the summer...a whopping 2 people: yours truly and Rita. lol
went bowling....COSMIC bowling!
went for all-you-can-eat wings on monday night MMM YUMMY!
and got to head out to the driving range again! woohoo! i'm getting better! maybe i'll post some pics...but we'll see =)

oh yeah AND last week sometime calvin and i headed out to an outdoor go-kart place and had round 2 of our battle! it was great cuz we had the whole track to ourselves and the people weren't really strict about bumping hehehe! i only forced calvin into the tires like....well ok i don't think i can count the number of times on both hands lol!! i wasn't gonna let him pass me! haha after we finished the guy running it said: "she's a tough one eh? wasn't gonna let you pass." GOOD TIMES! this place didn't have a print out of our times or anything so we'll just assume that i WON!

ok it's 7:15 and i've only got another hour left of studying, which is prolly not enuff haha!

for those who are still writing KEEP IT UP AND GOOD LUCK!
for those who are done GRRRRRRR j/p CONGRATS!

2more days and i'm HOME!

2005-04-06T00:26:00.000-04:00

it's disappointing when you realize that the people who are supposed to know you best really don't know you at all.

you can depend on friends to show you a good time, to tell you when you're wrong,to lend a shoulder to cry on,and offer advice

you can depend on a boyfriend/girlfriend for those times when you're friends aren't there, to talk to anytime without condition, give suggestions, encouragement

you can depend on family for all of the above, plus more, because they're never going anywhere, they can't be changed or replaced.

BUT, in the end the only real person you can ever rely on is YOURSELF. the less expectations you have on other people, the less they can disappoint you when they let you down. having such high expectations of other people only puts a strain on your relationships. having high expectations only leaves you more vulnerable to disappointment. why put yourself through such unncessary heartache?

but for some reason so many of us find this hard to do.

oh well

hello hello again!

2005-04-03T23:16:00.000-04:00

ok so as you all can tell i'm not very consisting with the whole updating thing hehe. i've been meaning to post about Rent, the musical, but i kept forgetting lol.

ok so newayz: on March 12 calvin and i went to watch "Rent" (sorry no pics. I was reallt excited about this cuz it won some awards and so many people absolutely loved it. i'm not sure if maybe i went in with my expectations too high, but i definetly came out utterly disappointed. the storyline/plot was not presented very well, there were a lot of things that weren't explained/potrayed very well. the most disappointing thing about the whole musical was the music itself. the songs weren't very catchy, and the vocals! *sigh* the vocals were just AVERAGE, i mean they weren't terrible or out of tune obviously, but they weren't consistent. for example: this one guy sang in the beginning and i was impressed, well compared to the other actors/singers at least, but when he did his second solo he cracked at least 3 times and went FLAT once. and anyone who ATTEMPTED to sing soprano always fell short, because for one thing they weren't even singing they were screaming. i waited the entire night for the soprano singer, the girl who would take me breath away, send chills down my spine, but she never came...well some girl tried but it wasn't very good. back when i was in High school i watched a girl perform the "Seasons of Love" song at York Mills Collegiate and i was more impressed by her performance than the girl in Rent.
Oh well what can you do? i'm not saying it was a terrible musical, it just wasn't memorable. I think Mamma Mia was much better! sorry to anyone who is reading this and LOVED Rent, it's just my opinion, i don't want to sound like i'm speaking with any kind of authority on the subject.

for some more recent news:
April means:

1)school's almost out! ahhhh that only means exams are right around the corner eek! i was in the ITV room at school catching up on some Shakespeare classes that i missed, and i deecided to make a list of all the ones i missed so i could keep track and make sure i watch all of them. yeah...let's just say an hour class here and an hour class there can really ADD UP :/ well mine added up to 35hours! oh deary me! all i can say is, i'll be spending A LOT of time in that ITV room over the next couple of weeks, 35 hours of time to be exact! basically means i missed 35 classes over the entire school year (Sept-April NOT Jan-April lol)

2)that it's time for me to plan where i'm gonna live next year and how i'm gonna move all my stuff back home. gotta figure out a way of getting my QUEEN size bed either into storage here in OT or back home in TO. plus i've gotta move my sofa set also, oh dear me! have no idea what i'm gonna do about where i'm gonna live next school year; didn't get into residence (crap), so i need to decide if i'm gonna live with 3 other girls from church or live on my own OR wait to see if i get residence later on since i'm on waitlist. it's unbelivable how stressful this all is, sometimes i'm more stressed out about all this stuff than i am about school!

3)summer is a month away. and usually this comes as a relief, but this year it just brings more uncertainty. i've gotta plan for summer school, talk to the registrar's office about taking a course "tapes to you" so i can stay in TO. this is my first itme taking summer school so i'm NOT looking forward to it. summer also means that i've gotta find a job. this is also sort of a first for me because every other year i worked for the City of Toronto: Parks and Rec, so i never had to reapply since it was guaranteed every year.

AHHHHH SOO MUCH TO DO! but it's all good, no stressing out, cuz that's just not my stlye. stressing out just makes me more stressed out, so i just gotta make sure to take things one at a time, tackle things as they come up, focus on the here and now and let tomorrow worry about itself.

well that's it for now, gotta get back to editing my essay.
see you again in a month or so haha.
btw: if you made it this far without falling asleep, kudos to you! lol ;)

What random object are you?!

2005-03-09T21:30:00.000-05:00

You are a sock.

You are a cozy, fuzzy, warm-hearted person. A lot of your friends describe you as a hopeless romantic. You fall for the opposite sex very easily. But be careful, because usually you don't know what you are getting into, and because you are very sensitive, you can get hurt... especially in early relationships. Also, don't exclude the cold-hearted from your "want-list", because they just might be looking for a kind person to warm up their heart.... or a sock to warm up their feet.

Most compatible with: Fork.

Click here -- What Random Object Represents Your Inner Self?

getting there

2005-03-08T22:20:00.000-05:00

Feb. 27 was my bro's b-day, he turned 24 eek! ican't believe he's getting so old!

after Reading Week everything was soo hectic! I had my rough copy of my BritLit essay due on Monday (28th), March 3rd: Film Essay Due, March 5th: Psychology Midterm (think i did pretty well woohoo!) March 5th was also KRISS' 22ND B-DAY! it was nice to go out after the stressful week esp that psyc midterm!

but after that it was right back to work because tomorrow March 9th my britlit final copy of my essay is due (but i'm all done!) which is why i'm updating now! lol

2005-03-08T22:19:00.000-05:00

our girls nite out at Fire&Ice. good times, esp elaine with her chinese fried noodles (i think that's what those yellow sticks are called) note Hannah's shirt (I love it!): "No Man's Woman"

2005-03-08T22:16:00.000-05:00

and last but not least! tell me that this isn't THE SEXIEST butt you have ever seen! whEwwwww! DAAAAAAAMMMN! that's my baby right there, the AUDI S4 with over 300hp! it gives me tingles just thinking about that kind of power! hehehe

2005-03-08T22:14:00.000-05:00

i can barely touch the ground! =(

2005-03-08T22:12:00.000-05:00

mmmm so sexy...the bike that is hehe=) j/k i love him on bikes! one sexy package lol.

2005-03-08T22:10:00.000-05:00

just a few pics from the autoshow, too many to post them all up.

Reading week

2005-03-08T21:50:00.000-05:00

after that on Feb 17th i had a HUGE mid-term for Politics and Literature worth 40%! i was really freaked out about this mid-term and as usually before an 8:30am exam i never get any sleep the night before. but i think i did pretty well on it, well it was one of those things that i either did really well on or i totally flunked! i had to use a second exam booklet (each one is 15pgs) so i definetly wrote a lot for just 4 questions.

that same day i went home for the reading week break, which was very welcomed. although i had an essay due the monday i got back, which was so not cool!
had a great break though, went to the autoshow and got one more round of skiing in before the season ends.

also had a fantastic girls day out where Hannah and i went for DimSum, visited our old High School, did our nails met up with Elaine to have dinner at Fire and Ice and Bubble Tea!

here are all the pics:

2005-03-08T21:49:00.000-05:00

next on the list would be the B-ball game that Kriss and i went to. It was the grand opening of the new sports centre and alumni complex, and it was Carleton Ravens VS. Ottawa Gee Gee's. sorry i don't have the pics on my comp. but the place was absolutely PACKED! totally sold out! and of course the Ravens won! come on, seriously we're UNDEFEATED! also went to watch the Ravens Vs. UofT Varsity Blues and again we won!

2005-03-08T21:42:00.000-05:00

here's a full length shot of the 2 of us. we had to ask 2 different ppl just to get a proper full length, because the first one was only half our bodies. it was kinda sad looking at all these other girls throughout the night though, cuz theyall looked soooo deevastated! there was a table of about 4 of them and they weren't saying a word to each other! i wanted to take a pic, but i thought it would be kinda mean! lol

2005-03-08T21:40:00.000-05:00

ok so i guess i'll have to go all the way back to Feb. 5th when calvin and i went to Charity Ball. i've been planning to go to this since like first year, and finally in my 3rd year i make it out. it was a good chance for us (well me in particular) to get all dressed up princess like. the atmosphere was pretty dull, but calvin and i made the best of it managed to have fun.

well hello stranger!

2005-03-08T21:31:00.000-05:00

alright alright so i admit that i've totally been neglecting this site of mine! but i have good reason: i've been swamped with work.

but i do have pics to put up! so here they are:

What was in the package

2005-02-16T17:19:00.000-05:00

so a few weeks ago i posted that picture of a package that i received in the mail from my mom. so i'm finally putting up the answer lol hehe.

and it was.......

a PAIR of shoes, well sandals. yes yes i know i have VERY small feet. the lady at the post office thought it was a gun when she was giving it to me. hehe.

okie dokes can't write much more, gotta study for a 40% midterm tomorrow. EEK!
but on a good note, i'm also going home tomorrow, yay for "Reading week" ;)

what puppy are YOU?!

2005-02-09T23:22:00.000-05:00

okok can you tell that i'm totally procrastinating here? lol i can't help it! Nikki started it when i went to her site and saw the number and colour quiz hehehe. (sorry to put all the blame on your Nikki lol)

You Are a Golden Retriever Puppy

Tolerant, fun-loving, and patient.
You are eager to please - and attached to your frisbee.

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

awwwww ish a puppy! soooo cute, i'm destined to have one! they are THE cutest puppies hehehe. although i'm not quite sure this best describes me lol.

what colour are YOU?!

2005-02-09T23:13:00.000-05:00

Your Passion is Purple!

You've got a ton of passion, but you don't always wear it on your sleeve.
If something truly excites you, you let your inner intensity shine through.
But otherwise, your passion tends to morph into energy ... which you never lack.
You're a balanced woman, knowing when to turn on the fire in your heart.

What Color is Your Passion? Take This Quiz :-)

Find the Love of Your Life
(and More Love Quizzes) at Your New Romance.

what number are YOU?!

2005-02-09T23:06:00.000-05:00

You Are the Reformer

1
You're a responsible person - with a clear sense of right and wrong.
High standards are important to you, and you do everything to meet them.
You are your own worst critic, feeling ashamed if you're not perfect.
You have the highest integrity, and people expect you to be fair.

What number are you?

2005-02-03T17:56:00.000-05:00

i got a package in the mail from my mommy today. hahaha can anyone guess what it is? leave a comment with your guess! i'll post the answer later lol!

hahaha i am SO NOT NERDY!

2005-01-29T00:00:00.000-05:00

it's says i'm definetly NOT nerdy and probably COOL! hahaha

2005-01-10T15:46:00.000-05:00

Calvin and I deecided to head to Camp Fortune (about 30mins from Ottawa) this past saturday to try and tackle snowboarding. yeah...all i can say is "OWWWWW" it was pretty confusing to remember everything and i have concluded that i feel Zoolander's pain, i too cannot turn left=( overall, i definetly prefer skiing!

2005-01-10T15:43:00.000-05:00

Here are some pictures from Christmas. so glad that my whole family came home. no time for a christmas tree, so we just put all the presents by the fireplace, well there is that tree off to the side lol=)

2005-01-10T15:41:00.000-05:00

and of course here she is again sitting on her uncle's lap waiting somewhat impatiently for the next person to unwrap gifts. probably wondering all the while, "when is it MY turn?" =) hehe she's so cute in her little red christmas dress.

2005-01-10T15:35:00.000-05:00

There's my cute little bundle of joy sitting on my lap curiously watching i think it was my mom unwrapping her gifts.

2005-01-10T15:32:00.000-05:00

my turn to open presents yaay!

exams

2004-12-14T21:59:00.000-05:00

haven't posted anything in awhile, but it is that time of year and no i don't mean the holidays, it's exam time! and we're all going through it, some of you are prolly just finishing up, and if you're one of them GRRRR. here at carleton they like to make exam period in the middle of december and all the way to the end. so when most of you are finishing up, i'm just beginning!

i wrote my a FIRST exam yesterday, monday, and i think it went ok, the questions that i DID answer were good, but then the questions i didn't answer...well that's just it; I DIDN'T ANSWER THEM! *sigh* oh well

i've got one more friday and my last one on the 22nd then calvin and i go home, and since he's so great he's going home this thursday and coming back monday with A CAR! yaay which means no bus for wendy! =) hey little things like getting a ride home are very exciting to a university student away from home with no access to a car, so don't laugh!

driving home also means no waiting at the bus terminal 1 1/2 hrs before cuz it's the holidays, also means we can leave right after our exam at noon don't have to wait till 2:30 which is what time the bus leaves and it also means i get home faster to my family, esp to CHARISSE! yesyes my sister, marcial and charisse have deecided to come home for the holidays, they'll be in TO by the 20th, which totally makes me sad cuz i still WON'T be there for another 2days! and then my 2 older brothers come on the 24 and 25th, the whole gang is back in town!~ WOOHOO!

oh yes and the highlight for this week is calvin gets to go back to TO on thursday, not by bus, not by car but BY PLANE! *everyone reading now goes "WHOA"* i know lucky bum! well the way it worked was i was looking at Jetsgo Loonie sales and they had flights from Ottawa-->Toronto for $1 for the dates Dec. 13-16 only, and flights from Toronto-->Ottawa for $1 but only on Jan. 6th. and i thought to myself, wait a second this are all the dates that calvin will be travelling! but he will be missing one day of classes in January, because they start on the 5th. i selected all the right dates and looked at the total, and it only came up to $71.92!!!!!! which is cheaper than him taking the bus home!!! so i told him and he felt bad about leaving me to take the bus back to Ottawa by myself after the holidays, but i said it was ok, cuz it's such a GREAT DEAL! so lucky bum gets to take a 1 HOUR plane ride!

the dates just didn't work out for me, cuz i have an exam on the 17th, so sad=(

anyhoo that's it for me!
good luck studying everyone!

nightmare

2004-12-06T13:11:00.000-05:00

Yesterday was one of the WORST days of my life, which will probably turn this week into the WORST week in my life ooooo SPLENDID!

have u ever wanted to hurt someone so bad, that even after you took that i dunno whatever one might do to relax, clear the mind, whether it be a relaxing bath, a tub of ice cream, a REALLY long run, watching tv, talking to friends, sleeping, throwing yourself into work, beating the crap out of a pillow or punching bag, but even after all that therapeutic calming you still wanted to inflict any kind of pain on this person? that's how i feel! For all those who know me, i am NOT one to sit idly by when someone does something against me, i can be sweet and innocent, the most loyal friend, but if you betray me or ANYONE i care about, i can be your WORST NIGHTMARE. a nightmare that you don't wake up from, because you're already awake, because this nightmare is called YOUR LIFE!

i've never regretted those 2 years, but after last night i've never wanted anything more than to turn back time and make sure it never happened. i've never felt as though i wasted so much time on something (i don't consider them a person, but rather an indispicable animal, a lephr you might say) in all my life. but since i can't do anything about it, i feel as though i need some sort of compensation, some kind of revenge....

but i can't, "Vengeance is mine, says the LORD" so i'll just have to wait and believe that good deeds do not go unrewarded. and trust that lephrs like this are suffering in their own way, after all they are the most hated, most disgusting scum of the earth, where people dare not look at them, go within 100ft of them, touch them in fear of infecting themselves. and i know that in the end.....well, we know what happens then

*exhale* that felt unbelievably good, i feel much better now, sorry just had to vent, hope i didn't scare anyone...=)

Anniversary!

2004-11-29T13:09:00.000-05:00

Soo yesterday was me and Calvin's 1year anniversary! It's hard to believe that it's already come and gone, time seems to fly by so quickly when you're having such a great time. I wish the day could have lasted forever, because it was so nice, although the weather was really crappy. despite the on going downpour of rain, we managed to have a great day. We started our day off going to church, then headed down to the Market for lunch at Blue Cactus, which was really good and apparently a pretty popular lunch time venue (sorry no pictures). Then we came back to his place, where he gave me my present=) All i can say is WOW! i was so totally speechless, it was by far the nicest, sweetest gift that anyone has ever given to me. When he told me it took him a year to make, i obviously thought he was joking, but he was serious. since day 1 Calvin has always been taking random pictures of me when i make a stupid/silly faces, and he put them all together in a collage style, printed it out and framed it in an 11x14" black frame. On the bottom it said "No matter what face you make, i'll always love you just the same." I took one look at it and I admit, some tears were shed. I definetly did not expect this, i was shocked, speechless is more like it.

We headed back to my place so i could give him his gift. which was a cd, where the songs were in chronological order to our relationship over the past year, and it came along with a self deesigned cd insert titled "The Story of Us", where inside a wrote something about each song, and what it meant to us.

then we went for dinner at Giovanni's Italian Restaurant. it was a little pricey, but worth it for a special occassion. we started the meal off with some drinks, a Pina Colada for me and a white russian for Calvin (we would've had wine, but i dont like it hehe), then we moved on to the appetizers, where we deecided to have calamari (soo yummy!!). and for the main course Calvin and i both had pasta, i had a veal pasta and calvin had his crazy seafood pasta, with mussels, shrimp, scallop, and lobster! yeah i definetly DID NOT try any of that! i overheard that the also offered Bailey's Cheesecake for deesert! EEK!!! sigh but i was waaaaay to full to add that to my tummy! abooo. oh well, we'll just have to go for deesert one night.

pictures to come....
well that was my wonderful night/day thank you so much hunnie!

life

2004-11-22T22:56:00.000-05:00

it's funny how life works sometimes, kinda like game of poker, sometimes you win, sometimes you lose, and sometimes you just gotta play with the cards your dealt. even if you've got 5 cards in your hand that can't get you anything, you just gotta make the best of it. just trade-in whichever cards you don't think you'll need and see if you'll get better ones. but you've gotta remember that you only have a limited number of "trade-ins", once you use all those up, you either fold and give up or give the other players a run for their money. you try to get them to fold and if you lose, hey at least you tried and maybe you even learned a few things.

life is just the same, you can trade in things that you might not like; your friends, school, job, boyfriend/girlfriend, even things about yourself or your family, but after awhile, you're just gonna have to accept what you've gotten for yourself, or you can just fold and give up altogether....

2004-11-22T16:07:00.000-05:00

and of course it's the "BIG APPLE" lol. looks kinda ghetto eh? hehe

2004-11-22T16:06:00.000-05:00

they even had lamas, ok i admit i was kinda freaked out about them myself, i thought it was gonna eat me! lol

2004-11-22T16:05:00.000-05:00

Calvin was starting to get a little antsy cuz this rabbit was getting a little too close for comfort! lol

2004-11-22T16:04:00.000-05:00

they had some wild animals there, kinda like a small petting zoo. yeah i dunno, calvin took this pic! there was a sign that said to be careful cuz the rabbits are wild and will bite you! but they look soo cute! lol

2004-11-22T16:02:00.000-05:00

they actually make the pies right on-site! it smells soooo good when you walk inside. and the pies are sooo heavy so you know they've got lots of apples inside! pricing isn't too bad, $10 for one.

2004-11-22T16:01:00.000-05:00

here's a pic of Calvin, and his 2 friends, Vinh and Maks. we made a stop at the "Big Apple" (in Colbourne) on our way back from Toronto to buy FRESH APPLE PIES!

2004-11-22T15:56:00.000-05:00

here's a pic of my wall FINALLY! it doesn't look as good as my blueprint does because i had to leave out a whole other row of pictures. it would have been to low and right below it is my bed already so no can do. so basically i bought these foam bricks and stuck pictures to them to add some depth and of course it's divided into sections: "FRIENDS, BABIES AND FAMILY"

back in Ottawa

2004-11-22T15:52:00.000-05:00

wel i'm back in Ottawa now, from my nice trip home back to Toronto. had a GREAT weekend, so nice to get away from school and the stress and just spend some quality time with family. totally surprised my mom when i showed up at the restaurant and she absolutely loved the quilt/tapestry! i'm soo happy cuz i spent soo much time on it!

went out to eat waaaay too much, i think i gained like 5 pounds! i was barely home. thursday was the big dinner (have pics from that later), friday tj and fred bought my mom Raptors tickets so we went to watch that, (Raptors vs. Sonics) it was actually a pretty close game, so it was exciting, and my mom really enjoyed cuz it was her first time watching a b-ball game. then of course after game, gotta go eat, so we went for some Pho, saturday had all-you-can-eat japanese MMMMMM sooo yummy! and sunday had japanese again, but thank goodness NOT all you can eat! phew!

here are some pics! i'll have more pics of the dinner and the raptors game soon.

2004-11-22T15:50:00.000-05:00

not sure if you can red the saying in the quilt, if not it says: "A Mother is the thread which holds our family close together. she is the fabric of our beginning, weaving threads of kindness, stitching us together with laughter and understading. she binds our hearts with fond memories and blankets us with love." As much as i'd like to take credit for this, i didn't write it =( but it's still really sweet!!

2004-11-22T15:47:00.000-05:00

here's a pic of the quilt that i made for my mommy. the pic on the very bottom of the heart is of me and my mom from the Toronto Star when i born. =)

anxious

2004-11-15T00:18:00.000-05:00

Can't wait to go home in 4 days YEAH! going home this weekend to surprise my mommy for her birthday (i know i'm just the greatest daughter! lol) it's her 50th, so i wanted to get her something really special, but obviously i couldn't find anyhting for her. although while i was looking online, i found this quilt/tapestry kind of thing, where i could upload 3 photos to the company and they'd print it onto a heart shaped quilt, but i thought, that looks easy enuff, i think i can make it myself. so yeah wendy's been working ALLL weekend, since wednesday to get this finished, and i must say i'm quite proud of myself, considering i'm totally winging this! although i did get a lot of help from calvin lol. i'll post pics once it's all done.

oh yeah ANNNND calvin is actually coming to this surprise dinner for my mommy because my DAD invited him I KNOW craaazy! so we'll be renting a car to go home, very excited, i hope my mom likes it!

oh right school.....*nervous laugh* yeah i've been kinda neglecting that...should prolly get back on that...hmmm i do have 2 essays due....interesting thought lol. i just have no time for school! lol PLUS i've got my 1 year anniversary coming up (28th) gotta start planning for that! (anyone got any ideas?!?), i'm sorry but school is just gonna have to wait! =)

on strike

2004-11-08T22:47:00.000-05:00

the lack of sleep and crappy weather is finally catching up with me, i'm getting sick. so today i went on strike, i did absolutely NO WORK today, went to 1/2 classes, napped for an hour, came home, rented "Raising Helen", finally worked on my masterpiece wall (post pics later) and now writing this =)

had quite the stressful weekend: stayed up till 5am on friday night working on my introduction for my essay, came back saturday afternoon to work on the rest of it and found out that it didn't get saved so i lost it! not very impressed, had a little meltdown then re-wrote it. i managed to finish the 4 page draft which was due for today's class last night around 1am.

but after tonight it's back to essay writing still got 2 more to go for this month. so sad...it never ends.

got some bad news from my sister: she won't be coming home for Christmas....*sigh* *sniff* *tear* so sad, don't get to see my darling little Charisse. I won't be able to celebrate her FIRST CHRISTMAS with her. plus that means my sister won't be there for my 21st b-day.

well that's it for meeh!
oh yeah besides the fact that it's friggin SNOWING here! ok it wasn't a lot but it was still SNOWING! shish gimme a break it's only NOVEMBER! grrrr

2004-11-06T03:40:00.000-05:00

well it's not the real thing, but maybe it'll be your first long distance shot brought to you all the way from the east coast of Canada, our lovely capital OTTAWA hehe. there's one for you and one for me CHEERS! a toast to AUDREY! yaaaay! lol

2004-11-06T03:26:00.000-05:00

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY LIL AUD! =)
sorry this is 3 hrs late, apparently the post i put up earlier didn't work=( wish i could be there to buy you your first drink *wink* i promise to come back soon and take you clubbing! muah xoxo miss u much

swamped

2004-11-03T19:53:00.000-05:00

Haven't posted anything in a while, been absoutely swamped with school work. i just never imagined the work load increasing so much from 2nd to 3rd year. As soon as i finish one assignment, i don't even have time to take a breath, i have to jump right into the next one.
I just finished a group assignment on the 28th, hopefully that goes well, get the mark tomorrow.

Had my 2nd quiz/test (30 mins for 6-7 pages), didn't have enuff time to answer the last 2 pages, so an automatic deduction of 15mrks out of 50. oh well, what can ya do right?

Have a book review due tomorrow and a midterm YAY! thank goodness i was able to finish the review over the weekend (so no halloween partying for wendy, i know A SHOCK! lol)

Have a 5 page draft of my essay due monday (8th) and the final copy due the 17th

And of course being an English Major gotta have another essay due the 26th.

Finally another group assignment due the 30th.

I'm just praying that God helps me through this month....

oh yeah....got my pyschology midterm mark....nothing else to say...*sigh*

i hope everyone is handling their workload and midterms better than i am! =)

on an up note i was able to get out and do some dancing on thursday night with Calvin and Kriss. I don't think i've had that much fun dancing to 80's music. Kriss and I are gonna have to rent "13 going on 30" again to learn the dance to "Thriller" hahaha good times good times. although i think our version was pretty damn good! hehe

Miss you all!

"it's like riding a bike, you never forget how"....

2004-10-27T16:39:00.000-04:00

sunday was the first time in i'd say about 7 years since i've been on a bike! Calvin finally went to go pick up his replacement bike on sunday so i decided to see if i still knew how to ride one....*hesistant laugh* hehehe let's just say the guys had a good laugh and Calvin had to come save me from falling over when i pushed on the brakes. hey, my excuse is that i was in 3 inch heels, practically stilettos!!!! =) i'll try again soon, i was just a little rusty. i'll just have to make sure i have A LOT of space to manoever, so definetly staying away from the Canal! lol.

still waiting for my psyc mark....

disappointment....

2004-10-23T22:24:00.000-04:00

so after studying a week for this damn psyc exam i still do bad. not much to say about, cuz don't really feel like going through it again. let's just say i spent all of yesterday after my exam thinking about it. i've never been so anxious about an exam before, i didn't get any sleep the night before, i mean i was in bed by midnight but didn't really fall asleep till around 4-5am (3 hrs of sleep). oh well just glad that it's over, just gotta wait for the mark to come in and plan now on how i'm gonna make it up on the final (worth65%).

Calvin and I both had a rough day with exams so we decided to take a break and actually go out! *shock* we went to watch "The Forgotten" and let me say that was the weirdest movie ever! i think it was SUPPOSED to be funny but everyone in the theatre just ended up LAUGHING! so i suggest that if you were planning to watch it, wait till dvd! but definetly watch it on dvd or something, just cuz it's such a good laugh! lol

2004-10-23T19:39:00.000-04:00

THE FUNNIEST PICTURE OF CHARISSE! hahaha she's sooo cute! this shot was total fluke!

2004-10-23T19:37:00.000-04:00

my yummy noodles i made for myself the other day! mmmmmm mommy would be so proud *tear* lol

2004-10-23T19:35:00.000-04:00

For those of you who have never seen my room, this was my masterpiece! of course Michael J. Fox is in the middle hehe. This is the wall just above my bed. I had to take it all done, b/c this year i'm working on a new masterpiece...still not done lol.

the time has come...

2004-10-21T03:00:00.000-04:00

The long awaited Psychology midterm has finally arrived. i've finally finished my studying; (after 1 whole week!) done each practice test 3 times and gone over my notes at least 3 times! i am sick of psychology! i can't wait to get this midterm over with and get on with my life and my other 4 subjects shish! don't know how well my mind will be working at 8:30 in the morning though EEK! oh well

alrighty time for this chicky to get some SLEEP!!! tell you all how it went after....until next time...

GRRRRR

2004-10-20T15:57:00.000-04:00

Fall exam schedule was released the other day, and let me say i am NOT very impressed! i won't be going home till the 22nd! yes that's right 3 days before CHRISTMAS! AS IF!!! that's the very last day of exams. yes i suppose it's my turn to stay till the very end since i've gotten away with it for the past 2 years but still! I suppose i should be happy cuz my exams are really spaced out, plus i only have 3. First one is on the 13th then 17th then 22nd, so i've got lots of time in between to study for each one. I do thank God that i've never had exams back to back.

i've been thinking more and more of an opportunity when i can go back to Vancouver, hopefully my sister comes to TO for Christmas, i'd love to be there for Charisse's first Christmas. Maybe i'll make a trip out in the beginning of summer, i'll aim for then. By then all the girls will be 19 *winkwink* hehe.

no more weekend

2004-10-19T11:54:00.000-04:00

well the weekend is over....noooooo! i've been trying to study for my psychology midterm on friday all weekend and let me tell, it ain't goin so great! i've downshifted back into 1st gear, but hopefully today i'll add a little more gas, increase the rpm's and shift back into 2nd (don't you love my cheesy car talk? lol)

the other day Calazula, bought me a model kit for the Ducati998, the box was soo pretty and the bike looks really cool. so i decided to build it yesterday, thinking "meh, this should be easy, prolly take me 30mins or something." yeah right! the instructions were absolutely terrible! i'll try to take a pic and post it up. i couldn't understand what the heck it was showing me, there were no written instructions, just pictures! instead it took me over an hour to build! but it looks so cool! He also bought a bicycle, which got shipped to his residence yesterday (after waiting nearly a month!) it was a surprise for me so that it would be easier for him to come visit me, so he wouldn't have to walk with all his stuff for 40mins! yaaay! ph yeah but he has to wait, cuz the bike came with a huge dent it! stupid Sportmart!

next on the list: my mommy is in VANCOUVER!!! boooooooo i'm soo jealous cuz she gets to see baby (charisse)! my mom called me the other day to let me hear charisse laugh over the phone, it was so cute! i wish i could just skip school and go back to Vancouver for a week or something! I MISS HER SOO MUCH! =( she's gonna grow up without her favourite Auntie!