Some food for thought

nightmare

Yesterday was one of the WORST days of my life, which will probably turn this week into the WORST week in my life ooooo SPLENDID!

have u ever wanted to hurt someone so bad, that even after you took that i dunno whatever one might do to relax, clear the mind, whether it be a relaxing bath, a tub of ice cream, a REALLY long run, watching tv, talking to friends, sleeping, throwing yourself into work, beating the crap out of a pillow or punching bag, but even after all that therapeutic calming you still wanted to inflict any kind of pain on this person? that's how i feel! For all those who know me, i am NOT one to sit idly by when someone does something against me, i can be sweet and innocent, the most loyal friend, but if you betray me or ANYONE i care about, i can be your WORST NIGHTMARE. a nightmare that you don't wake up from, because you're already awake, because this nightmare is called YOUR LIFE!

i've never regretted those 2 years, but after last night i've never wanted anything more than to turn back time and make sure it never happened. i've never felt as though i wasted so much time on something (i don't consider them a person, but rather an indispicable animal, a lephr you might say) in all my life. but since i can't do anything about it, i feel as though i need some sort of compensation, some kind of revenge....

but i can't, "Vengeance is mine, says the LORD" so i'll just have to wait and believe that good deeds do not go unrewarded. and trust that lephrs like this are suffering in their own way, after all they are the most hated, most disgusting scum of the earth, where people dare not look at them, go within 100ft of them, touch them in fear of infecting themselves. and i know that in the end.....well, we know what happens then

*exhale* that felt unbelievably good, i feel much better now, sorry just had to vent, hope i didn't scare anyone...=)

posted by sillypoo @ 1:11 PM