regrets?
sometimes i wonder why ppl choose to get into relationships, why they want so badly to be in a relationship when it's guaranteed to bring tears and heartache? (btw i'm guilty of this also) i mean i know my quote says that it's better to have LOVED and LOST than NEVER to have loved at all, but isn't once enuff? why get broken hearted twice?
as you all know i was in a 2 year relationship a fews years ago and it ended rather sour. it took me a long time to get over this and i was definetly broken hearted, some of you saw me at school, i was practically a zombie. (btw they only reason i can talk about this now is because i've gotten over it and moved on, i never thought it possible but it feels great to be free of that hinderance!) i vowed that i would never get that involved or that serious in a relationship again, that i would never submit myself to guy and let him have control of my life, and my emotions ever again. and i succeeded at this for nearly 2 years. my entire first year of uni was me loving and enjoying being single, it was great, no one holding me back from doing what i loved and absoutely no one breaking MY heart! (altho i'm not sure i can say the same for myself hehe j/k!)
but i've gone and done it again....i've gotten involved, but how can i be certain that this won't be the same? but i suppose that's the BIG question everyone who may be in a similar situation struggles with also, how can one be sure that this ONE is worth it; worth all the heartache, all the tears, the sorrows and the pain that comes with the territory? you feel so confident and sure in the beginning, but as time goes on you question it more and more....i know every relationship has its hard times, their down times, i guess it's all about pushing thru and you decide on your own what's worth it.
i suppose i'm just struggling right now being on the otherside of the country and thousands of miles away. it's hard...sometimes i want to give up trying, to go back to my single life...but as i tell everyone else, you have to give it your all so that in the end you yourself have no regrets, no doubts about whether you didn't try hard enuff, and that's exactly what i'll do...i'll put in the effort the time, even the tears, and even if he doesn't, in the end i'll know and i'll be satisfied.
YAY!
Yay my baby's back from camping! ANNNNNNND today marks
7 MONTHS
that we've been going out! I can't believe that it's already been 7 months, but at the sametime i feel like i've known him forever. he's become such an important part of my life. the past school year was so much more bearable with him by my side. Thanks hunny for the best 7 months of my life! *muah* 143 50 17711014 1 01817'7 111817 7177 81161157 1114317 1 637 70 533 11 868117. 11 1778153 1773 50 48994!
I wasn't allowed to take any pictures during the History of British Columbia tour/show i went to, but here's one i took before they told me hehe. it was really dark inside this was one of the actors, he playing a Native Indian telling the story of when they were the first inhabitants. it was a really impressive show, everything was indoors and we'd walk to each different room which was a different setting and told a different part of the history. for $11 i thought it was worth it.
ahhhhhh don't you just LOVE the scenery! that's why i love this city so much, everywhere you look there are mountains in the background, so BEAUTIFUL! i guess that's why they call it "Beautiful British Columbia"
This is my trip down to Gastown in downtown Vancouver yesterday. It's me and my eldest brother, standing by the historical Steam Clock (basically it's runs on steam duh). not a very clear picture cuz it wasn't focused properly.
FREEBIES!
gotta love waking up at 7am! i still can't believe i did it, but i suppose now that i look back on it wasn't so bad. you see my sister heard that Zellers was going to be giving away a $10 gift card to the first 100 customers today at 8am so of course she wanted to go. of course who else would go with her except for me? it wasn't so bad, we got there around 7:45am and we were only the 31st and 32nd ppl there (i was actually surprised that many ppl were there lol). But what made it more worth it was the fact that Zellers had made a mistake on the giftcards and actually put $20 on each one so my sister and i got $40 in total. for 15minutes of my time pretty good, now my sister can buy more diapers! this was a first for my sister; waking up early, standing in line to get something, but sadly a THIRD time for me.
well that's it for now, i'm off to a show on the History of British Columbia and perhaps the Jazz Festival.
Here's my adorable little niece Charrise fast asleep in my arms. Isn't she just the cutest thing ever?! ahhhh! =)
aboo
So today my baby left to go camping and even though we're already thousands of miles apart it still makes me a little sad, plus it makes me feel that much further from him. altho techinically he's only like 20mins away from my house in Newmarket hehe. strange what love does to a person. i'm just sad b/c i won't be able to talk to him for the next couple days, but i'll survive cuz "i'mma survivor, i'm not gon give up blahblahblah" don't remember the words. sorry that was really cheesy! HAHAHA!
A N Y W A Y S!!! SO WENDY'S A L-O-S-E-R! i blame it on the fact that i'm sick and drugged lol! ok that's it for now not much more to say!
OKOK
So i suppose i should actually write something in this thing, altho i doubt anyone comes to it cuz the only person i've told so far is my baby. hmmm still don't really know what to say. plus i don't really remember any html that i used to know and i don't really feel like finding any of it out again. but it's not because i'm lazy it's just cuz i can't stare at the computer screen too long cuz i'll get a headache.
for those of you who might now know, the other day i had a lovely visit to the emergency at the Burnaby Hospital. YAY! i really don't understand why they call it EMERGENCY when they still make you wait at least 45mins just to see a doctor! Hello i could need some SERIOUS medical attention here! SHISH! so neway i had to go to the hosital because i throwing up for about 2 hrs straight, from 12:30AM-around 3AM when the doctor finally called me in! it was not very fun. i won't give any of the gory details but basically the doctor says i prolly have Vertigo so i have to go see an ENT (Ear, Nose and Throat) specialist. So yay for Wendy! gosh i hate being sick!
so that's the update on my life here in beautiful British Columbia.
Interesting.....
hmmmm so this is a blogsite eh? not really sure what i'm doing, but we'll see how things work out. i'm sure this'll be a surprise for my baby though hehe. ok nothing else to say, guess this wasn't much food for thought. oh well maybe next time. gimme a break i'm new at this!
