Tuesday, December 14, 2004

exams

haven't posted anything in awhile, but it is that time of year and no i don't mean the holidays, it's exam time! and we're all going through it, some of you are prolly just finishing up, and if you're one of them GRRRR. here at carleton they like to make exam period in the middle of december and all the way to the end. so when most of you are finishing up, i'm just beginning!

i wrote my a FIRST exam yesterday, monday, and i think it went ok, the questions that i DID answer were good, but then the questions i didn't answer...well that's just it; I DIDN'T ANSWER THEM! *sigh* oh well

i've got one more friday and my last one on the 22nd then calvin and i go home, and since he's so great he's going home this thursday and coming back monday with A CAR! yaay which means no bus for wendy! =) hey little things like getting a ride home are very exciting to a university student away from home with no access to a car, so don't laugh!

driving home also means no waiting at the bus terminal 1 1/2 hrs before cuz it's the holidays, also means we can leave right after our exam at noon don't have to wait till 2:30 which is what time the bus leaves and it also means i get home faster to my family, esp to CHARISSE! yesyes my sister, marcial and charisse have deecided to come home for the holidays, they'll be in TO by the 20th, which totally makes me sad cuz i still WON'T be there for another 2days! and then my 2 older brothers come on the 24 and 25th, the whole gang is back in town!~ WOOHOO!

oh yes and the highlight for this week is calvin gets to go back to TO on thursday, not by bus, not by car but BY PLANE! *everyone reading now goes "WHOA"* i know lucky bum! well the way it worked was i was looking at Jetsgo Loonie sales and they had flights from Ottawa-->Toronto for $1 for the dates Dec. 13-16 only, and flights from Toronto-->Ottawa for $1 but only on Jan. 6th. and i thought to myself, wait a second this are all the dates that calvin will be travelling! but he will be missing one day of classes in January, because they start on the 5th. i selected all the right dates and looked at the total, and it only came up to $71.92!!!!!! which is cheaper than him taking the bus home!!! so i told him and he felt bad about leaving me to take the bus back to Ottawa by myself after the holidays, but i said it was ok, cuz it's such a GREAT DEAL! so lucky bum gets to take a 1 HOUR plane ride!

the dates just didn't work out for me, cuz i have an exam on the 17th, so sad=(

anyhoo that's it for me!
good luck studying everyone!

Monday, December 06, 2004

nightmare

Yesterday was one of the WORST days of my life, which will probably turn this week into the WORST week in my life ooooo SPLENDID!

have u ever wanted to hurt someone so bad, that even after you took that i dunno whatever one might do to relax, clear the mind, whether it be a relaxing bath, a tub of ice cream, a REALLY long run, watching tv, talking to friends, sleeping, throwing yourself into work, beating the crap out of a pillow or punching bag, but even after all that therapeutic calming you still wanted to inflict any kind of pain on this person? that's how i feel! For all those who know me, i am NOT one to sit idly by when someone does something against me, i can be sweet and innocent, the most loyal friend, but if you betray me or ANYONE i care about, i can be your WORST NIGHTMARE. a nightmare that you don't wake up from, because you're already awake, because this nightmare is called YOUR LIFE!

i've never regretted those 2 years, but after last night i've never wanted anything more than to turn back time and make sure it never happened. i've never felt as though i wasted so much time on something (i don't consider them a person, but rather an indispicable animal, a lephr you might say) in all my life. but since i can't do anything about it, i feel as though i need some sort of compensation, some kind of revenge....

but i can't, "Vengeance is mine, says the LORD" so i'll just have to wait and believe that good deeds do not go unrewarded. and trust that lephrs like this are suffering in their own way, after all they are the most hated, most disgusting scum of the earth, where people dare not look at them, go within 100ft of them, touch them in fear of infecting themselves. and i know that in the end.....well, we know what happens then

*exhale* that felt unbelievably good, i feel much better now, sorry just had to vent, hope i didn't scare anyone...=)